To Hell With The Facade

Last night, we did an episode on our live stream show called shadow house, all about racism.  It was by far the most frightening show I’ve done yet.  To tell you the honest truth, it is much easier to simply raise my frequency to a perspective that does not facilitate any kind of identification with fear or pain.  This is the vibrational space that I teach from.  But when I am not deliberately focusing myself into that vibration, I am…where I am.  Like anyone incarnated upon the earth, I am both shadow and light.  I too, have pain relative to certain races of people and certain religions.  I too, carry the wounds of my individual experiences.  And the spiritual journey of my life is to marry those two perspectives.

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For thousands of years there has been a strict rule among spiritual teachers.  The rule is: be the role.  It is considered career suicide to deviate from the role.  It is considered career suicide for spiritual teachers to come clean about the shadows of their own psyche.  It is a commonly held belief that no one wants to follow a teacher that is anything less than the perfect image of enlightenment.  Enlightenment, like heaven has been treated like a goal.  People want the promise that one-day it will all be over, whether that version of an end is the state of enlightenment or resurrection after death to a celestial paradise called heaven.  But enlightenment is seen as a kind of retirement, like heaven.  And we treat it like we treat retirement, as if it is the pay off at the end of a road of pain.  When we are disillusioned by our spiritual teachers (who turn out to be real people too), we loose the dream of an end to pain and goodness.  We feel betrayed.  We feel the same way we felt as children when we found out that Santa Clause didn’t exist.  And most spiritual teachers are too afraid of hurting people in that way.  What’s more than that, most spiritual teachers are too afraid of the consequence of publicly airing their own dirty laundry in a world that expects that they have none.  But the consequence of not doing so is covert corruption.  Shadows have a way of making their way to the light.  And so, for thousands of years we have seen story after story of spiritual teachers and leaders (who we all thought were perfect) whose dark sides have reared their ugly head.  We come to find out that they are having sex with their students (young children even), or embezzling money, or pocketing money from charity donations or even acting as an accessary to (or committing) murder.  If we, as spiritual teachers, do not confront our darkest shadows, they will remain forces that are hidden, covertly taking themselves out upon the world.  And it does not serve our own wellbeing.  Few people can truly imagine the pressure of trying to hide the skeletons in your closet from a world that keeps its eyes firmly fixed upon you.

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 When spiritual teachers pretend that there is such a thing as a state of enlightened retirement from the contrast of the world, they perpetuate a painful lie.  They make it impossible to teach their students how to fall in love with the present moment and find joy right here and now because they promise them a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow.  The lie is: it is possible to live as a physically incarnated being without experiencing that which is unwanted.  Contrast (the experience of both that which is wanted as well as that which is unwanted) is what fuels expansion, which is the entire reason we came into these lives that we are living.  If we find a state of being where there is no longer any contrast, we will cease to be physically incarnated.  There is no longer a reason to be alive.

It does not serve people to believe that enlightened perfection is possible.  It keeps us desperately grasping.  It keeps us constantly aware of our shortcomings.  It makes us believe in a vertical world, where it is possible to be better than or less than someone else.  It makes us put those who we perceive as perfect, on a pedestal and in the process, forget the capacity of our own power.   It makes us believe that there are things about us that need to be eradicated in order for us to be good or to be loved.  We condemn ourselves for where we are when we believe that enlightened perfection is possible.  And because we cannot openly own up to where we are, we cannot find healing for the actual issue.  We only put Band-Aids on top of gangrenous wounds.

It does not serve me as a spiritual teacher to continue to perpetuate the role we have been playing for so many years.  It does not serve me as a spiritual teacher to lie to those who exalt me for the objective truth of my perspective.  It does not serve me to let fear bury the truth of who I am when I am in the public eye.  This is a new age that we are living in.  A time when people will come into a knowing of their own god-hood.  Conformity to an ideal, no longer serves us.  It cooks us in the furnace of self-suppression.  And I have decided that even if it kills me, I am going to lead this shift by example; knowing that when I expose myself, I give people permission to be where they are without making them wrong, unlovable or bad for it.

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The entire reason I started shadow house as well as this blog, was for the sake of transparency.  On a personal level, there is an ineffable freedom when there are no longer any secrets.  A freedom that I believe is an unclaimed birthright for everyone in existence.  On a worldwide level, we are all sick of the façade.  I’m sick of the pain that this façade causes people.  It perpetuates self-hate and disillusionment.  And in the absence of the nitty gritty truth of where we are, we cannot find our way to where we want to go.  There is no healing to be had.  It is like trying to use a map to get to a destination, but being unwilling to admit to where we currently are.

People who identify themselves as spiritual, do not often admit to the difficulty of practicing the art of alignment in the real-time, modern world.  But I can tell you that spiritual practice is a lot easier when it is being practiced from an isolated monastery or ashram somewhere.  But regardless of whether we have isolated ourselves from the world to practice or walked right into the bowels of the world to practice, spiritual practice is still difficult.  And it is just that… A practice.  It is a practice that cannot be mastered because source (also called god) is always changing.  We feel guilty that we struggle with our spiritual practice.  We feel ashamed of our shadow sides.  We do not allow ourselves to indulge our true feelings because they do not line up with our vision of what a spiritual person SHOULD be.  And I am done with it.  I will be as unconventional as I need to be for the sake of demolishing this harmful condition.

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I feel fear when I commit the cardinal sin of spiritual teacher-hood, by airing my dirty laundry in public.  I feel fear when I expose my multiple Achilles heels to the world.  I feel fear that people will withdraw their love, abandon me, write me off or even seek retribution.  But the vision I have and the passion I feel for this change far outweighs my fear, as liberation always does.  I know that many will not “get it”.  But I am not catering myself to them.  I am offering myself and my expository actions to those who will “get it”.  I am not an authority figure, whose place it is to give or deny any one else permission; but sometimes feeling like we have permission from others, liberates us.  So, I am offering myself to those who are as sick of the spiritual guru façade as I am and who are ready to act on the permission that I am giving them to be themselves completely; and to be wherever they are.  Because of this, I am committed to owning up to my shadow and exposing my shadow to the world because I have decided that it is worth it, whatever the cost may be.  And so it is.

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  • RESPECT TO YOU!

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  • Where ever you go .. however you get there.. you carry my faith … that you will get there …

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  • Right on! I’ve said this many times to people and most, unfortunately, disagree. Once I revealed I was a reverend while engaging in social activities. The parties involved were shocked. “But you listen to metal, you smoke hookah!” I’ve done plenty but it does not take away from the light. We’ve all to experience learn and grow in this existence.

    Anyway, I love you Ms. Scott. Thank you for shining brightly as you do!

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  • and so it is

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  • I admire your honesty. I have always thought that if we are here we are not perfect, and that is a good thing. It is what makes us move. Perfection does not move anywhere. I am thrilled that you are honest. Thank you.

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  • bravo!

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  • Exposing the shadow side of oneself is hard enough as it is, without being in the public eye. Kudos to you Teal. Keep doing what you are doing. It serves as an example to us all.

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  • I related to this post completely. Teal, in this writing you echoed everything that I have felt and thought but never communicated to anyone in any wholesome way sense. Thank you for showing me back to me. This post makes me much stronger in my resolve. I am loving it that a being like you exists in my journey. I connect with your communications and representations like crazy. If I did create you for myself…..I must be totally awesome. If I did not, then existence just sent me an amazing gift. That too is totally awesome.

    Much Blessings, love and gratefulness.

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  • Thank you brave one. Much love and admiration for you, your teachings and your courage. <3

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  • I have so much respect for you Teal. Putting yourself out there for the greater is awesome!!! Thank you for everything that you do!!!

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  • I love that you are an open, honest teacher that is not perfect. When I teach, I teach through my experiences too so I do share my failures. I so get it now that it was never about the destination. It is all about the journey. WE never get it done. Daily I call myself a work in progress when I refer to my alignment because one minute I am up in joy and a few minutes more into the journey I can hit depression. That is your appeal at least for me. You are not just using words to teach. You are teaching from your experiences.. the good, the bad and the ugly. This makes you more real. Which makes my failures and fears more acceptable to me.

    Love and light,

    Robin

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  • YESSSSSS! total integrity, 100% honesty, i watched some of last night and you all were awesome! thank you thank you thank you!!!

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  • That was some crazy stuff last night! I’m sitting here laughing to myself about it. I appreciate your honesty as we all have “shadows” and I could see that everyone felt good about getting it out. I’m still shaking my head about BET entertainment channel!!! Geez, poor BET!

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  • Exposing your shadow is terrifying. I admire your courage. The people who would abandon you or withdraw their love never understood that love is unconditional. Thank you.

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  • Thank you for your purpose of being transparent, knowing that the shadows do not really exist in the light of Truth. We can expose them for the temporary power we give them, for their lack of authority when attention is not given them and for their confusion to participate in any orderly goal & purpose. Thank you for knowing that shadows as private or secret thoughts have nothing to offer but dead end lies of meaning.

    I join w/ you in the Source we live & dwell in as Us.

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  • I found this review in the newspaper this morning . . .

    Last night’s episode of shadow house was certainly the most realistic to date – reinforcing that this series is different from any other soap-opera I have ever seen.
    I fully sympathize with the producer’s decision, compelled by increasing costs & sinking budgets, to restrict the locations to just the one room – & strangely, this added a novel awareness of the inner dimensions of the actors’ hearts & minds – even though none of them seemed to be sticking to the script.
    It’s a mixed blessing – the lack of commercial breaks – one never knows what is being missed, while downstairs brewing the next cup of tea.
    A simple, yet profound idea, a community of contemporary “spiritually inclined” human beings – exposing their hidden shadows – sometimes voluntarily – but more often – successfully & unintentionally – under the ever watchful eye of the groups leader – a beautiful black & white cat – whose honesty and ease in front of camera confirms its eminent suitability for the role.
    Last night’s episode cycled around the topic of racism – adding an instantly perceptible frisson of excitement for those watching the ethnic assortment seated at the table – this was going to be fun – the group leader, profound as always, demonstrating a perfect harmony of black & white.
    Slavery – or more precisely, the insistently reinforced “faux” memory of slavery – was mentioned as being one of the excuses employed to incite and perpetuate defensiveness.
    One of the few times that the group leader looked a little uneasy – for fear that the group might recognize its off-camera relationship – but I feel it escaped them.
    At one point – transmission was lost – & I have to admit to missing much of what followed – being distracted again by the kettle – but I shall certainly tune in, next time – to this compelling, episodic masterpiece.

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    • omg this was hilarious and awesome hahaha!! especially the part about the cat… cosmos WOULD be the group leader haha. he always seems to sit in front of the person who needs him most.

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  • I recently discovered you, and again today your words magically popped into my life. To me, you are beautiful inside and out, and I am so happy that you have chosen to walk along side me as a teacher and a friend, instead of in front of, or above me. Once again you have shown me that you are a wonderful, loving soul. Namaste

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  • So much love to you, Teal! It’s scary to be so open, but as scary as it is, as vulnerable as it may make you feel, that honesty and that love for the world will come right back to you. Those who doubt merely reflect your own self-doubt. Do not be afraid of them.

    I look forward to the day when I get to meet you! I’m going to give you the biggest hug.

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  • Thank you, Teal I see this as you are breaking the chain. No pedal stools, love it! I watched the live broadcast and it was very real for sure. What bothered me most was the live chats. Disregarded that for a while. Then it became pretty intense and I have been trying to stay away from the drama. This was different though. And at the very end I did feel that release. I could relate on a lot of different perspectives. Just keep what you are doing true. Definately what this world needs. Love, vision and expansion. We will all grow together.
    Dd <3

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  • Thank you Teal

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  • Yes, yes, yes!!! This has helped me so much- quite often i find myself looking up to shiny, centred and perfect (through the window of which they have presented themselves) “spiritual people” and think “Well fuck, its going to take me lifetimes to get there!” *automatic self-hate monster creeps enters for it usual beating* Thank you Teal, Thank you for coming to earth… I met you in dreamtime a few nights ago and you were sitting on a couch, i kneeled down and said “Thank you, thank you for coming and teaching the world about shadow, and how to transmute it”
    I often think, if Teal can do it – after all she has been through, i can do it!
    Your work is unique and very needed at this time…

    Love, blessings and Laughter,

    Sarah

    x

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  • 100% honesty is such a blessing by a spiritual leader…… I have known only the other variety in my 70 + years. I came across 100% honesty value when working as an RN in a Drug recovery program in Austin Tx in the mid 80ies…… Then came back to Colorado with corporate health care that was absolutely nauseating….. oh well, I had the rent to pay and children to provide for….. Thank you Teal for being just who you are…. you are a wonderful model of the way leadership should be. Hugs, Miki

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  • Andrés Ceballos

    It won’t cost you a thing! You are being yourself, not a perfect idol of some followers.

    I love you, Teal. And we all do love you!

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  • Khandaa Infinity

    That’s exactly what I needed to be myself without doubt or permission. Thanks Teal for being true. You are real spiritual leader.

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  • From my perspective it helps to be reminded that you are purely human, just like me. I have mad respect for you for reminding of us of this too. It is too easy to take the advice of someone you feel is the perfect example of what you want to be. But to know that you are imperfect like the rest helps me to relate to you more. Thanks Teal for opening up your life in hopes that we will find ours with your advice! :-)

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  • Well said Teal!!!!! namaste

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  • caroline o sullivan

    All I can say is thank you. I have for a long time, not felt good enough to be a teacher, that I must be doing something wrong, I can not stand fake people. But you come along and show all your sides and with doing this, you are telling us, we are ok and ready, we are “enough”.. You have given me permission to live each day as good as the next person. Yes we all have a dark side and I’m glad your honest about yours because I cannot hide my dark side but always felt ashamed of it, until recently..
    Again thank you for walking into my life
    Love & Light to you and your communial family xxx

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  • I love hearing this. I think the shadows are releasing whether we want it or not. I just wrote this Bait and Switch piece about circumstances in my life causing me to look at something I was most afraid of. xox http://bit.ly/19XxalR

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  • That is Teal, you are traveling into Yourself, the Infinite, and That is what It is, the Travel itself is a Pure Joy, and It will never ends! And thank You for sharing Your experience with us!

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  • You go girl. This culture has become so politically correct that it has become a way to censor free speech. We all have prejudices and biases from experiences in our lives and yes, sometimes we pass judgement on other people or races or have different opinions than we are “supposed to have” It’s part of being on Earth. Unfortunately , the school systems do not allow freedom to express one’s true opinion and after 12-15 years of being told what to think not how to think,we end up believing we need to be homogenized to a one thought fits all culture. Keep expressing yourself .The more real you are the more free your students become!

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  • Teal, a pesar de tu juventud, tienes la experiencia y el conocimiento de un alma muy vieja. no creo que en algún momento hayas intentado ser alguien qué no eres. Siempre desde que decidiste este camino, has sido tu misma, has expresado tus creencias y has seguido fielmente tus convicciones. Tu también has dicho que no es necesario que todos estemos de acuerdo con lo que predicas. Todo esto te hace ser verdadera, no mostrar otra máscara más que la de tu verdadero ser. Bien sabes que los momentos de miedo y temor es porque nosotros dudamos de nosotros mismos y ese es el miedo que se descubre cuando sacas a la luz tus pensamientos que han pasado tanto tiempo en la sombra. Siembre serás una maestra porque siempre habrá alguien que aprenda de ti y no porque tu quieras enseñar. Tu tienes la respuesta a tus miedos, y una forma de deshacerse de ellos es acercándonos y descubrviéndolos.

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  • It’s nice to finally see someone real, in the spot light, and also someone who has something worth sharing and teaching us all. Something I have learned to over come my fears of what other people think is, mind over matter, those who mind don’t matter, those who matter don’t mind. Thank you for being real.

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  • Victor Adegbola

    THANK YOU TEAL for this poignant blog. We need true Acceptance of our current perceived state.
    I found myself in the same situation when I signed up for Spiritual Networks (like facebook, but for spiritual people). As I was filling in my profile info, I found the urge to only list movies, music, and hobbies that spiritual people SHOULD be into. Glad I didn’t follow the urge, because it allowed me the opportunity to see & accept myself.

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  • I agree with you and definitely we need more transparency and less ego manipulations.
    You are doing a very good and courageous work in stimulating people for the good of our new age. As you said other times that the world is evolving like your “Source”, so as the world as the Universe. You came at the right time and I am giving you my best support for what you are doing… THANKS!!!!!!!!!!

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  • Gracias por ser como eres y por ser una guía en el camino de autoconocimiento. No entiendo del todo tu reflexión, puesto que justamente.lo que dices que vas a dejar de hacer, yo en ningún momento he visto que lo hagas. te pido una disculpa por no poner este texto en inglés, pero.confió que lo entenderás en su nivel energético. Brillante como siempre astro.de luz, cada vez más intenso,.íconos de la nueva dimensión.

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  • straight up and wonderful.

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  • its really interesting that you posted this today, because earlier i was thinking about something you mentioned in an interview about how it kinda made you feel bad that people expressed relief when they learned that you’re struggling as much as the rest of us. i thought about how i wish i could tell you you’ve gotten it backwards…. its not that we’re GLAD you’re down here in the muck with the rest of us; we feel relieved because it means that we are doing much BETTER than we thought we were! to me, its more proof that i can forgive myself for not fully utilizing the spiritual wisdom i was born with. i can forgive myself for still struggling to take care of myself and make my way in the world. it tells me, “sam, you’re doing just fine.” i see how, despite your struggles and fears, you are still willing to put yourself out there and “take the risk” of doing what you know in your heart to be right… despite how people may react. you do it anyway! and to me, this is one of the highest forms of courage.

    thank you so much for allowing yourself to be who you are. you have forever changed the path of my life (for the better!), and no part of your shadow could ever invalidate that. in fact, the more of your shadow i see, the more awesome i think you are, and the more compassionate towards myself and others i become. so needless to say, there are at least some of us who “get it.” <3

    love,
    samantha (aka "darwin chun")

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  • To read this post felt sooo good! All this transparency, sincerity packed, “f’ this!” tone of the blog felt so liberating and empowering. It also made me feel more grateful for the spiritual teachers I have, which are so aligned with what you just said here. Simply beautiful.

    Also Teal, you can fear anything you want, it’s all fine, the “ones that get it”, as you said at the end of the post, we ackowledge your fear, we accept your shadows, as dark as they might be, and see through them. In fact, the more you open yourself to the world, the more you open yourself to us, the more we’ll love you, since you’re giving us the opportunity to connect with what you trully are.

    Much gratitude, respect and love for you and your teachings Teal. Be blessed!

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  • I have known few amazing people on my road but you are definitely in that elect group. Thank you, Teal, for opening our eyes and our minds.

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  • Teal , you are the most awesome person I know . And I am truly honored to be able to follow your
    teachings. I totally resonate with all you have said .

    Know you are Loved by many including me.

    Paul

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  • Lots of love and light from Colorado! You are a beautiful inspiration to many more than most could ever dream to be. Please keep shining your light!

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  • Thank you for your stand, Teal! Idolatry is a good name for the syndrome. Children tend to think of their parents as perfect, and some parents go along with the idea. Citizens refuse to believe that their government would deliberately do them harm. Hopefully, as people become more aware of this syndrome, they will adjust their parenting style to allowing their children more freedom, with less imposition of the need to conform or obey. I see you thriving. Hang in there!

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  • Thank you Teal! You have changed many peoples lives ( including myself ) I love the fact that you are trying to be transparent because in my opinion, it gives me comfort that I am n

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    • Oops, my comment got cut off. I meant to say that I am not alone on this journey and you have given me the skills and shown examples to move positively forward in my life. Its important to remember that spiritual teachers are people too and that we are all here on this journey together. :)

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  • Not sure if you read much of these post Teal, but, I watched a few minutes of the show lastnight and I loved it. It’s so important to feel connected with a spiritual leader. I for one work personally with a spiritual leader and it’s great to know that spirtiual leaders are people too. It brings in that type of connection that all people should pay close attention too. Anyhow I hope to hear from you soon. Lots of love!

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  • Your imperfections make you more endearing to those of us who know better. This is a human experience we are all having. It Is impossible to come out of it unscathed. I HEART you Teal!!!

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  • Dear Teal….

    You continue to amaze me every time!! Your bravery and your willingness to be vulnerable and the way you lead your life is such an inspiration to so many of us!!

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  • golden chokolate

    I could feel the passion…I LOVE THIS ~ i love you

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  • Your ability to live your life with such honesty and vulnerability is your greatest gift as a teacher. Please never stop shining your light.

    Namaste

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  • You are so right in this policy I think Teal. For me anyway it helps so much to know some of the ‘real’ Teal, as well as the high vibrational perspective you can access (as we all can to some extent). And look at your popularity, I think it has been boosted by this rather than anything else. Among the Tealers I know everyone has found your honesty and openess very positive.

    BTW most people have ‘Share’ buttons on their blog so people can easily forward something to friends. A friend of mine should read this xxxx

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  • We both know that we live in a balanced macrocosm of “good and bad” and restricting one is to restrict the other as well. Let it all hang out girl! You are loved.

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  • Reading this blog was refreshing . Last night, I was very puzzled and my emotions were all over the place with all the things that were said in the discussion. To see you Teal so real and vulnerable was painful. I have never seen you in that position before. I had pictured you in my mind as an spiritual teacher with a hard past but with a strong and wonderful present. A teacher that knows how to be happy and love unconditionally everything and everyone. So when you were cursing and bad talking about Mexicans, republicans and your codependency relationships I was shocked. (because I have only seen your light side). However, reading your post allows me to understand how sincere, pure and human you are. Thank you for your honesty and for being you. I will continue following your teachings they are great, I want to continue my journey learning from you.

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  • It’s like the big sister, 20 something years younger, teaches me the ways of life..

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  • Thanks Teal! I Get It And I Will Always Support You As You Have Done For Me. Thank You.

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  • I truly understand and share your fears. Thank you for being such a brave one. Those of us, who truly look within ourselves, accept we are human, and love that we have these human moments, will never abandon you. We’ll ever love you, for being a beautiful mirror to us. Love & tight hugs to you.

    Love & Light,
    Seqkat >^..^< *

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  • bravo.
    high-five.
    quite relevant to me, today.
    naturally, perfectly timed.

    i find myself frequently pausing before publishing “tough love” kind of thoughts, or songs, or blogs, tweets, etc. other times, i send it quite confidently knowing there’s a seed of change that someone might get from it, as i did myself.

    good to that know that we’re everywhere.

    much love.

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  • In the shadow house video It skipped a big chunk on racism but you are a bad ass spiritual teacher. You’re #1 on the people I trust. You know we all love you.

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  • I have been following your blogs and videos quite a bit the last few months and I have to say that what your talking about here is the exact reason why I have kept following. I feel connected when I hear you speak and I relate. Really needed to hear so many things you have put into perspective. Whatever your doing, keep doing it please. I have given up on so much spiritualality from other peoples point of view and am completely focused on the personal relationship between myself and the source, my higher power. It, is, rad. Everything is like a personal design that I am tapping into deeper and deeper. You are really hitting the nail on the head with so flipping much information that I just sit back and say, “Yeah, that’s what I’m talkin’ about.” So friend. Do what you gotta do because it’s working for folks like me. Thank You!~Coyote

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  • I have also exposed my shadow self…where do we go from here???

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  • I love that you show your shadow side to us all. It actually encourages me to be a better person rather than sit and think, well I’ll never get there because of this or that. Now I know I’ll have bad days, good days, blah days, etc and it’s ok.
    My only regret about last night’s Shadow House was that my computer froze and I was unable to finish it.
    You are awesome Teal….thank you.

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  • Amen, sista! :) I am SO with you on this one, and your post is a breath of fresh air. Thank you for your desire to be your authentic self. It inspires me to continue my journey to do the same.

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  • Your work on loving all of your parts helps us love all of our parts too….which means you’re doing exactly what you said you wanted to do…teach humans to love themselves….way to go Woman :) Your intergrity and vulnerability and good example are exceptional….rock on with
    your unconventional self…wouldn’t have you any other way …as always, much love here for you xxxoo

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  • Thank You! Much love :)

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  • Mark Timothy Morgan

    When I first started reading your ‘shadow’ side articles; I was shocked as to how much you had suffered in this 3D reality & turned out ‘normal’ & aware of the Truth – & was teaching from that inner knowing. I resonate 100% with all your videos I have viewed over the last several months & they have answered some of of my own personal questions that have remained unanswered the past few years. As a dedicated student of Buddhism for the past 23 years; the Path was almost straight & narrow; but recently ‘the Path’ started disappearing occasionally; leaving me wandering around & wondering what to ‘do’ next. (;)

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  • Dearest Teal, i just want to say…. I GET IT!!! I SO, SO, SO GET IT!!! Thank you for this blog, I needed to be reminded of this today.

    ” It makes us put those who we perceive as perfect, on a pedestal and in the process, forget the CAPACITY OF OUR OWN POWER. ” – yup, yup, yup!!! all too often we forget that we too have the power within us to be the very best that we can be, IN EACH AND EVERY MOMENT, and disempower ourselves by handing it over to someone else…

    Again, my heartfelt thanks!!!

    with love and joy always,

    beth

    p.s. thank you too, for being “unconventional”… thats my kind of “normal”!!!

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  • Thank you for your honesty & transparency, Teal :) I’m a bit older now & have been around long enough to know better now than to put anyone, regardless of whether they are a spiritual teacher, celebrity, politician or whatever, on a pedestal. I no longer have illusions that someone is perfect, or even near perfect…myself included. I realize that EVERY one is human, has problems, shadow sides, etc., regardless of who they are or their status. And the media nowadays, especially, seems quite ready to dig up any dirt they can get on someone. Not to mention politicians & religious leaders :P Makes me glad I’m not “famous”. It’s like that old song by Don Henley (I think); Dirty Laundry. Kick em when they’re up, kick em when their down….etc.

    Continue being true to why you are here, to yourself & your visions!

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  • Hail Star Sister Teal- Please…
    You just keep on Shining your Brilliance and telling it as you perceive it and know there are others who appreciate your insights and your words to assist in this awakening. It is most difficult to speak out One’s truth, yet, once we trust our Gut/God/ess self… we raise the vibrational bar. I hold the light and vibration for you as I feel you hold the same for us.You rekindled a knowing within me when I first saw your video almost a year ago. I feel your heart and soul and I recognize you and the I in us as star family.
    We are here to speak the words that need to be said, share our remembrance and help our families. Kudos & Blessings to you Teal, you are an inspiration and please don’t ever doubt it!

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  • With all due respect Teal, I think this idea of “shedding light on the impossible ideal” is hogwash. There is no reason why we can’t achieve true freedom and enlightenment while also in the physical. This is a thought, and a desire that many have had, therefore it MUST be a possibility (we’ve created it!).

    It doesn’t have to be a “retirement.” Contrast, doesn’t always have to take the form of “good” and “bad.” It can take the form of good, and better, and even better, and EVEN better ;) Shadows are optional.

    Why call an ideal a “facade” when you can call it an achievable goal? To call something impossible is top limit your view of possibilities.

    Why not toss out all those ideas of limitation? Why call something difficult? Why not be bold enough to discover its possibility ;) ?

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    • I believe it is true people can reach this level in which contrast only falls within the range of “good and better”. But the vast majority of people come from serious shadow, and the only way we could work through that is to learn to love ourselves regardless.

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  • By far… the most needed thing on the planet right now. Thank you Teal. I am so grateful for your love._Crystal Blue

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  • Dear Teal ~ I am very shy and rarely comment. But have followed you for sometime now. I find you
    so refreshingly honest, and I feel what you are saying in my core. It is what I knew in me was correct.
    I dont “worship” you. But I do love you. I do believe your story, and what you have to share and the
    importance of it. You are very brave to bare all and be transparent, I support you in heart and soul.
    Thank you for your pain and for your message, you have helped me so very much and I in turn have
    been helping others in my small way. Much love and support your friend Darlene <3

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  • Beautiful post Teal. I was blown away in you’re recent anxiety video, where you shared some if you’re innermost fears and worries.

    It gave me, as a student and burgeoning teacher, a lot of comfort to know that such an advanced soul still grapples with day-to-day weaknesses in this 3d environment. To know that it’s a ok to be “not perfect” is such a freeing feeling. i’m very thankful for you’re honesty and guidance.

    Much Love!!!

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  • This helped me decide to commit to visiting your London workshop this fall. For a while I had felt a strong pull to visit one of your gatherings but had been ignoring my inner deeper intuition. I look forward to the time whereby I reconnect with my soul sisters and brothers. Thank you Teal, for your courage, insight and compassion xxx

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  • Teal, thank you. Your commitment to exposing your shadow is beautiful. Last night’s Shadow House, all of Shadow House, and your teachings have continued to be very rare, amazing boosts for me vibrationally and in dealing with my own shadow work. From my perspective as an observer, you are the first spiritual teacher that I have fully trusted enough to really help guide me because you actually make sense, even when, and especially because, you confront your own shadow. For those of us that get it, there is nothing like it. Those of us who are ready to do the work are ready for you be so honest about it. The relief and sense of freedom that comes from observing you keeping it real with such integrity is proof to me: There is only one Teal Scott. And I am not alone (still working on that one). I love you. Thank you!

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  • It is the ability of allowing and letting oneself being fully vulnerable that makes us with realize of the life within, the source and most definitely the freedom from fear of judgement. It is vulnerability and full surrender that allows us to realize the intensity and the greatness of the present moment. We cannot do anything about what is gone and what left, neither can we predict what is coming, nor what will be. The free spirit realizes that it doesn’t need to run away or achieve a goal in the form of an ever moving target, Only here and now as we breathe and open our eyes to truly see can we realize the dynamics of the noise of the leaves as the wind moves them, the birds that are singing, the sun that pierces through and vitalizes all beings, a truck passing by on the road, the wind splash created by it and the air vacuum that follows, all at once, in one moment. You can’t help but fall in love, with the dynamics of it, of all that is, outside of you and through you. You are awesome Teal! I admire your courage and simplicity.

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  • This blog reminds me of a man who lived for 2000 years ago..he also break new ways of living and also show the vulnerability to be a human.
    For better or worse a will read and follow your source perspective..many hugs from Sweden and me.

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  • Margarita Suarez

    Thank you <3

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  • Thank you Teal. Words won’t shape the thanks I feel for your courage. I will appreciate whereever you go – like you say transperency is bloody well overdue on Earth. Its our liberation. Bowing to you Noble One x

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  • A real leader and example, courageous and walking her talk.
    May you succeed and change many lifes for the light to shine everywhere.
    Thank you sincerely
    Bon courage

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  • Krešimir Mandić

    This is exactly why I follow you and your teachings Teal. Thank you. Love to you and your family. Keep it up ;) :)

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  • Respect to your honesty and bravery Teal, it doesn’t happen a lot that a teacher stands up that doesn’t make us chase some riddicoulous impossible dream. thank you and and keep it up ;) <3

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  • Shadowhouse has given me immeasurable relief, it has allowed me to make peace with the fact that I’m a multi-faceted, work-in-progress, human being. I love myself so much more, and that love is not dependent on where I am in my journey. So I thank you whole-heartedly for your willingness to be real and transparent. I feel close to you even though I’ll probably never meet you. I <3 you and everyone else that has been on Shadowhouse.

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  • Well said, the strive for perfection only creates guilt when we don’t meet it, such a harmful emotion x x works in progress thanks teal x

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  • This resonates well with what I’ve read about history of spirituality.. or History of God as Karen Armstrong wrote…
    We as a big group of incarnated human beings should evolve and we do evolve, we’re evolving. Jesus was sent here only thousands of years ago, then Muhammad was sent to continue Jesus’ teaching, as a human being, living like common people, with contrasts good and bad. Jesus had all the divine healing ability, full of Love and Light, while Muhammad had a life of shadow and light.

    We human are ready to face this. Let’s evolve. Let’s not keep the duality. Shadow is always there for us, but we can always walk toward the Light..

    Thank you again for being real, Teal.

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  • Respect Teal, there isn’t other way if you want to be happy then to be true to others and yourself. That is actually my own life experience, i left my master who was for many many years the example of perfect enlightenment due to his ‘weakness’ not to be able to show his ‘normal’ human side and be honest to his disciples. In fact honesty is always greater then image of ‘greatness’.
    Love can only be there where there is total honesty. There’s nothing more beautiful in relations then honesty, true open heart.
    Spirituality is nothing more then total honesty with the life.

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  • It makes me love you more and more. [hug]

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  • OHHH GOD !! WE love YOU !! And of course you are right !! We…..me are SICK, of all the facade !!!
    And especial the Religion, or the Leaders… of the Religions……

    Keep Going !! You make the different !!! We LOVE U !!

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  • Hi Teal,

    Thank you so much for your absolute honesty. I find it totally refreshing. It is also a comfort to finally be able to relax, take things as they come with me (good and bad) without worrying about some kind of goal. To just plough on the best I can is ok. :)
    Please keep shining with your messages. You are totally awesome.
    Love and Light, Jackie

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  • That speaks well of you that you wish to remain genuine and expose that you are also a mortal with the shadow. Surely it is also a good PR move as it ensures people attention
    However, if you are advising on how to “align with the Source” then your lectures are as much worthy as your success with implementing it in your life. If we see that you as anybody on this Earth also have ” big challenges” then how can we trust that the “remedy path” you suggest in your videos or book WORKS AT ALL? Faith is not enough. People like the solid evidence supported in successful practice. Medice, cura te ipsum .

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  • Dear Teal, I LOVE LOVE LOVE you for that!!!!!! It is SO true and it feels SO good to hear and see! Thanks so much for your beautiful and inspiring courage <3

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  • Yes, accepting truth and having the courage to show it to the world is so healing and liberating and it’s how life should be lived. Good luck in such a brave attempt!

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  • Dear Teal
    I love your blog and I love you exactly for your integrity. I love your videos especially for you are always in such a good giggly mood. The blog on the other hand shows your ups and downs and makes you human. I guess we all have this wish of being true to ourselves and everyone else but we are stopped by our fears, so by being brave and showing your shadows you show that they only make us more likable.
    I wish you a lot of strength so you keep going.
    I send you my LOVE
    Rahel

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  • Thanks Teal :-) I knew since I was in my early twenties that to be a leader was simply to be out front….being the change …. not talking about it. The true art of teaching is in communication back and forth …it is always a two way street . Guruship inhibits this to a great degree…. only transparency facilitates true sharing and growth…….for both the teacher and the student. This is ALWAYS the true way … benefit for both. Every time you intentionally share only your “light” side …you are expending energy on covering up your shadows……and you get nowhere :-)
    I love you …and am with you :-)

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  • The clearest and most concise explanation of ‘I am, that I am; thus far. Thank you for the light.

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  • Dear teal, I think that this point of view that you represent, beside from your impressive high prespective, is the reason that I like what you say and write so much. You are not at all alone in this transperancy quest. I know some spirituall teachers (I don’t know too many), from Israel where I live, who try to live as best as they can, by this Principle. I noticed that Abraham hicks does that too. So I feel like It’s the very updated new age :)

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  • Teal, this is just another reason why I respect and totally “align” with you (can’t find a better word to describe it)! Thanks for making my days nicer…

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  • The exposure of your shadows is the crux of why I feel so comfortable in the community you’ve created. Why i finally found a place that feels like true home. Growing up, everything was secrets and pretending it was all “ok”. It was terrifying to be a little person tiptoeing around, NOT feeling ok but having it drilled into my mind that it HAD to be. You are an incredibly powerful being for sharing your true self. You inspire me, Teal. I have found it’s paramount that I connected with you in this lifetime. I know that in the past my lack of alignment with this principle was a strong part of what held me back. Thank you!!! <3

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  • Thank you, thank you, thank you. What a priceless post!

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  • Love your work and direction – seems that transparency is one of the best options to let the love and light shine, also letting go of ego self opens up so many more opportunities to just show up

    With Gratitude – Smith Jones xx

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  • Thank you for finally SAYING it!! There are many people working it out in the labs (the world of illusion, the dirty lies, facing the ego) practicing, purifying, purging the egoic mind!! I of one follow what you are saying and find it is the ONLY way to PEACE!!

    Keep it up Teal and your team, it is a breathe of fresh air… indeed!! I say LET’S DIG DEEPER!!!

    Nura

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  • Well said !!!

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  • I loved the last shadow house episode. And I love your teachings and especially you – just the way you are. Again, thank you for sharing!

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  • Shadow house last night change my perceptions immensely, it brought out my shadows and patterns that i haven’t seen my whole life. Thank you for helping me see my relationships for what they were and not i can move forward.
    Just Keep Swimming!

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  • Thank you Teal,love and SUNshine all the way from Greece,keep up the good work you inspire us !

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  • Dearest Teal-have noticed this a few times in your blog posts-including this one-using the words “loose” or “loosing” when clearly the intention is to use the words “lose” or “losing”. Thanks for your teachings-the phrase you used to describe yourself -an expert on human suffering-grabbed my attention and opened me up to the “you create your reality” teaching.

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  • Ernestyna Eichenlaub

    Teal…you are a blessing. You are helping others open their Heart Chakra. Thank you…xo From what I have learned in my spiritual studies this life time, there is no one free from so-called sin. duh. not even JC himself, for most of us have full amnesia and if we have no memory of having killed, harmed or done some injustice in one life time or another. We never know at the moment who our next incarnation will be. Will we be our Mother, Father, Sister, Brother, Neighbor, Teacher in our next life. Therefore, we must treat all equally and align ourselfs to raise the vibration to get through our trials of this life time. Turn the cheek, so to speak if the tasks at the moment is way too hard. Take steps to get there while staying stable on the Tone Scale of Human Behavior. Thank you for incarnating this moment in time and sharing your trials to help us learn that each of us has to go thru it to ascend to our next lesson. Infinity…is our creation. love you, Ernestyna in Florida

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  • Thank you for your honesty! Thank you for being vulnerable! Thank you for being willing to face the dark, the unwanted,
    the shadow as service to us, who in our small steps, seek to become just a bit more self accepting, a bit more real and
    ever slightly more magnificent when we drop, just a smidgeon, our facades

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  • THis is awesome! All your blogs! so awesome! resonates with me so much! Thank you a million times!

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  • Gudrun Geirsdottir

    You are amazing. You say exactly what needs to be said, and you give the world more than you realize. Thank you for existing exactly as you appear my dear.

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  • Thank you for this Teal, if it matters to you, know that you have my love, my support and my unconditional acceptance in seeking your own truth and fulfiling your life mission <3 <3 <3 also I'm so very thankful that you share it with all the world so openly :)
    you are one of the kind, truly wonderful person that I can always look up to :) * like you don't know that already ;D
    p.s. you will achieve it ;) in the end it always works out, and if not it's not the end yeat, you told it yourself I think =)

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  • Authenticity Rocks! :)

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  • I really like and agree on this post. It is crucial for a spiritual leader to be “human”. This is actually what disappointed me about Byron Katie when i joined The School for The Work back in 2005. She would not admit to have any stressful feelings at all. There was also other things about her and her teachings that really bothered me.

    Keep growing Teal, you are lovely and a true inspiration. Thank you -beautiful you!!!

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  • I can relate to you on so many levels, and have such respect for you. You are one of the teachers who has helped me the most because you are REAL, not untouchable or intimidating. You see energy as we do in Spirit and have many healing gifts, You have a down-to-earth humorous way that is delightful, and you are brave enough to speak truth. It helps with shadow work to have guides who are going there to those places, teaching healthy ways of doing it. You’re doing great!! Thank You for being the real you Teal!!!

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  • Dear Teal, thank you. I know why I crossed your videos on Facebook a few month ago. You are a fabulous teacher to me. Thank you so much for your honesty and courage and for giving me permission to be myself, that is the very best gift that one can ever receive. Thanks to being the witness of your wisdom as well as your shadows, I can begin to accept and reconcile all the parts of me with a new tenderness and deep true appreciation. Love you so much. Thank you so much.

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  • Teal, I somehow discovered you yesterday and needless to say, I ended up doing absolutely nothing else for the day but go through much of your material. Each and everyone of your teachings walloped me, not because I was unfamiliar with the teachings and concepts you expound, but because of the profound way in which you share them. The level of raw honesty, sublime clarity and loving directness with with you share your information is something I have not experienced from any other teacher–and it has made all the difference. I honor the experience you chose of a brutal childhood. It served to solidify the core of the platform from which you teach and was a necessary contrast to the level of spiritual awareness with which you incarnated. Indeed, the Universe/Source/I had deemed fit that connecting with your energy was the next step in my evolution. Today’s post packed another punch. Truly, truly I am grateful!

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  • Dear Teal;)
    I’ve watched shadow house and had most awesome time ever-so many amazing, eye opening moments-its transformational and inspiring! and I just have great love for you guys-keep it up-you have no idea how much this is helping people-world needs communities and discussions like this;)!!
    Thank you Teal again for another beautiful blog post, and thanks to you I realised the reason why I can be in a high frequency and feel and talk one way, and then when being in the lower frequency-show real shadow side of my character. Its all about perspective and frequency;)
    I feel its absolutely the right time for opening up and not being afraid to be yourself, as you said- its new age movement time-lets lead the transformation, lets embrace and love who we are;)
    Namaste xx

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  • All that you have to do is change the perspective of a learner from looking at their mentor as a teacher to looking at them as an epic hero archetype. In that sense, every example becomes the type of truth you’re talking about. Every hero has their tragic flaw that ends up being a successful mistake. Every adventure begins with love of one other that fuels the journey and reflects the challenges, successes and truths in personal ways that are then attained In the coil toward universal truth. ;-)

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  • I stumbled across you on Youtube about three weeks ago. Now that I know about the “Law of Attraction” I realize this is not true – that I was supposed to click on to one of your episodes because it was a “vibrational” (still getting used to that word} match to you and your teachings. All I can say is you’re the bravest person I’ve ever met (we haven’t met yet but we will at an upcoming workshop} and to reach out to others with full disclosure of your past, as well as facing the fear how some might react to your speaking out on certain subjects, is nothing short of awe inspiring! The fact that you simply escaped your past would be enough, but to find true happiness and help the rest of us find our own is a gift that I’ll continue to cherish. Read your first book – loved it! Thanks for being Teal Scott. Best Wishes, Dave Clark

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  • Dearest Teal: To hell with it indeed!! Your transparency is the quality that has been missing from other spiritual teachers and it is what I love about you the most!

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  • yay! i feel like opening up too :)

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  • I just read this article about 10 ways the brain works. Apparently it is ‘official’ that making mistakes makes us more likeable, as shown in paint no. 7. So there it is, we spend so much time hiding our shadows worrying that people wont like us only to kind it can make us more likeable! :

    “7. We tend to like people who make mistakes more.

    Apparently, making mistakes actually makes us more likable, due to something called the Pratfall Effect.

    Kevan Lee recently explained how this works on the Buffer blog:

    Those who never make mistakes are perceived as less likable than those who commit the occasional faux pas. Messing up draws people closer to you, makes you more human. Perfection creates distance and an unattractive air of invincibility. Those of us with flaws win every time.

    This theory was tested by psychologist Elliot Aronson. In his test, he asked participants to listen to recordings of people answering a quiz. Select recordings included the sound of the person knocking over a cup of coffee. When participants were asked to rate the quizzers on likability, the coffee-spill group came out on top.
    So this is why we tend to dislike people who seem perfect. And now we know that making minor mistakes isn’t the worst thing in the world–in fact, it can work in our favor.”

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  • Well said that girl. I’m right with you on this.

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  • I really like and agree on this post. It is crucial for a spiritual leader to be “human”.

    Keep growing Teal, you are lovely and a true inspiration. Thank you -beautiful you!!!

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  • Allisson Griesedieck

    Reading your blog has inspired me to reveal more of myself, and be more open and honest about my journey in my own blog. Thank you Teal!

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  • That is cool… love from Australia

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  • Yes! I fucking love it! I love your no bullshit approach Teal! Amen sister!!

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  • Hey Teal,

    Thank you for having that important talk with your housemates, and being brave and honest enough to share it with us! As a black woman and media maker, I found much of what you said to be very interesting, and I wanted to give my own thoughts on this, which may help clarify your roommate’s perspective, and provide some food for thought.

    I actually did a video response to some of your comments about BET, racism, and how you feel as a white person in this country, which you can find here http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iGLgWoUnlw0. Take care!

    Peace,
    Nev

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  • Namaste, Teal.
    Thank you for sharing your feelings about what I like to call “sitting on your Mer Ka Ba, eating bon-bons”.
    Your vulnerability and heart are among the traits you possess which make you such a potent teacher. Your transparency about the trials you face in your personal life really create an accessibility and trustworthiness that is unheard of among your peers. Thank you for your bravery!

    Love to you and your family in this difficult time.

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  • Yay! I support u no matter what. Love ya georgous!

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  • Amazing that ‘s what you are! You, Teal Scott, made of light and shadow, you make me feel less lonely, I hope my comment makes you feel less lonely too, much love

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  • Wow, I never thought about it until you said this Teal. It’s this airing of your dirty laundry with such transparency that I am drawn to your teachings. Because you seem like a peer to us rather than someone to be exalted. And knowing that is really comforting!

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  • Oh, I so get it :)

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  • I look for authentic teachers, who are in life and teach from theire experiences. I found out you are a great teacher.

    You can reflect yourself ..

    Now I understand it more clearly and it gives me what I need.

    Gee Love !

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  • Whatever it is, it leads itself back to love.

    The concept of weakness leads to the concept of vulnerability which leads to the concept of love.

    The concept of strength leads to the concept of fulfillment which leads to the concept of love.

    (I struggled with a couple conversations with myself, but that’s what I discovered.)

    “Everything about you deserves love.” This came from outside me, but it’s what I’ve known long before my memory.

    Thank you for this blog post. Insightful, as always.

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